Post by DJ on May 21, 2019 19:16:32 GMT -5
I was never allowed to watch Raw because my mom thought since it was live there would be more bra & panties matches and divas in their underwear. Even if I had been allowed to watch it I used to watch wrestling on VHS after my oldest brother recorded the shows and he hated the divas and especially the diva search, so he would have fast forwarded through it anyway.
I was 11 years old when Eddie Guerrero died. When I went to school everyone was talking about a kid from our school who also died, but to me I didnt know him so all I was thinking about was Eddie. That night I watched Raw live with my brothers. There was a touching Eddie tribute, and pretty much everyone cried. But there's one thing I remember more from that night.
When the Divas came out for a battle royal, and I saw this beautiful girl for the first time.
Ashley,
At a time when I was losing interest in wrestling, you made it fun again. When I was sad about Eddie dying, you helped me feel better. I still couldn't watch you every week because you were on Raw, but that didnt stop me from looking up every picture I could find. When you went to Smackdown, I started watching Smackdown every week just to see you.
Every week I fell for you harder. I was rooting for you so hard at Wrestlemania to beat Melina and win the women's title, and surprised when you lost until I read that you were injured. At that time you were the most popular woman in wrestling, and if you hadn't gotten injured you would have been the champion. I couldn't wait for you to come back and get another shot at the belt.
I kept watching every week waiting for your return and was so excited when you came back, but it didnt last for long. I was on a vacation with my family when I turned on Smackdown only to see you get suspended. I was so upset I let it ruin the vacation for me and when we got home I immediately logged on to Kaos 4 Real to find out why you were written off television.
I never did end up watching Survivor because by the time I knew what channel it came on you were already eliminated. Even though you were only on Survivor for about a week they kept you off WWE television for months, and then you returned again this time on Raw but only a few months later you quit wrestling so you could be at home with your at the time sick daughter. I don't remember watching wrestling for a long time after that.
I have always resented the WWE, wrestling, and some wrestlers for acting like you didn't exist. It disgusts me that as soon as you were gone, they turned their back on you. Not that they ever had it in the first place. Other than Chyna you were the most blackballed woman in the history of wrestling. When WWE would talk about Trish Stratus vs Mickie James, they would conveniently forget that it was actually a three person feud, that you were just as big of a part of it as they were and that it was originally supposed to be a triple threat match at Wrestlemania 22 until you got injured.
They tried to hide the entire Ruthless Aggression era and in recent years they have even gone so far as to say the Divas in the past were a joke because they were sexy or some ridiculous nonsense. Meanwhile they continued to bring back Trish Stratus, Lita, Torrie Wilson, Stacy Keibler, Michelle McCool, Maria Kanellis, Maryse, Mickie James, and I believe even Candice Michelle made a one off return. But Ashley, who wanted just to be recognized by WWE was never mentioned and never given an opportunity to return. Even now in her death, there was no acknowledgement of Ashley from Vince McMahon, Stephanie, Shane, Linda, or Triple H.
The only good thing has been seeing the love and support the other wrestlers and especially her fellow divas have expressed for Ashley over the past several days. I think it was Layla's or Trish's instagram posts that first made me cry, and really it would be more accurate to say I weeped and have broke into tears multiple times this week.
But I'm not just heartbroken over Ashley's death, I'm furious. I am filled with anger reading again that the WWE covered up that you were drugged and raped on a WWE tour, told you not to tell anyone about it and has continued to work with your rapist ever since and to this day. Putting a R.I.P. graphic on screen is a small gesture, but the WWE could have done so much more to help Ashley while she was still here. Furthermore, it upsets me greatly that someone made a fake facebook account pretending to be Shelly Martinez (Ariel from ECW) and saying that Ashley committed suicide. Shelly's verified twitter account has denied it and there is zero proof that she ended her own life so please don't believe or spread that rumor.
Even though I never met you and I am just a fan, I'm sorry Ashley. I followed you on Twitter and Instagram, but I never even tried to reach out, and tell you how much you made me smile. Thank you for always caring about your fans, from giving us your phone number during the Diva Search to your last tweet being about responding to fan mail, you were so good to us. I'm crying even now typing this so I should probably stop. I am still too hurt to watch old clips of you right now, but one of these days I'll be watching your matches/promos with a smile on my face!
and I know its weird to say cause you don't know me but I still love you! Thank you and God bless you!
I was 11 years old when Eddie Guerrero died. When I went to school everyone was talking about a kid from our school who also died, but to me I didnt know him so all I was thinking about was Eddie. That night I watched Raw live with my brothers. There was a touching Eddie tribute, and pretty much everyone cried. But there's one thing I remember more from that night.
When the Divas came out for a battle royal, and I saw this beautiful girl for the first time.
Ashley,
At a time when I was losing interest in wrestling, you made it fun again. When I was sad about Eddie dying, you helped me feel better. I still couldn't watch you every week because you were on Raw, but that didnt stop me from looking up every picture I could find. When you went to Smackdown, I started watching Smackdown every week just to see you.
Every week I fell for you harder. I was rooting for you so hard at Wrestlemania to beat Melina and win the women's title, and surprised when you lost until I read that you were injured. At that time you were the most popular woman in wrestling, and if you hadn't gotten injured you would have been the champion. I couldn't wait for you to come back and get another shot at the belt.
I kept watching every week waiting for your return and was so excited when you came back, but it didnt last for long. I was on a vacation with my family when I turned on Smackdown only to see you get suspended. I was so upset I let it ruin the vacation for me and when we got home I immediately logged on to Kaos 4 Real to find out why you were written off television.
I never did end up watching Survivor because by the time I knew what channel it came on you were already eliminated. Even though you were only on Survivor for about a week they kept you off WWE television for months, and then you returned again this time on Raw but only a few months later you quit wrestling so you could be at home with your at the time sick daughter. I don't remember watching wrestling for a long time after that.
I have always resented the WWE, wrestling, and some wrestlers for acting like you didn't exist. It disgusts me that as soon as you were gone, they turned their back on you. Not that they ever had it in the first place. Other than Chyna you were the most blackballed woman in the history of wrestling. When WWE would talk about Trish Stratus vs Mickie James, they would conveniently forget that it was actually a three person feud, that you were just as big of a part of it as they were and that it was originally supposed to be a triple threat match at Wrestlemania 22 until you got injured.
They tried to hide the entire Ruthless Aggression era and in recent years they have even gone so far as to say the Divas in the past were a joke because they were sexy or some ridiculous nonsense. Meanwhile they continued to bring back Trish Stratus, Lita, Torrie Wilson, Stacy Keibler, Michelle McCool, Maria Kanellis, Maryse, Mickie James, and I believe even Candice Michelle made a one off return. But Ashley, who wanted just to be recognized by WWE was never mentioned and never given an opportunity to return. Even now in her death, there was no acknowledgement of Ashley from Vince McMahon, Stephanie, Shane, Linda, or Triple H.
The only good thing has been seeing the love and support the other wrestlers and especially her fellow divas have expressed for Ashley over the past several days. I think it was Layla's or Trish's instagram posts that first made me cry, and really it would be more accurate to say I weeped and have broke into tears multiple times this week.
But I'm not just heartbroken over Ashley's death, I'm furious. I am filled with anger reading again that the WWE covered up that you were drugged and raped on a WWE tour, told you not to tell anyone about it and has continued to work with your rapist ever since and to this day. Putting a R.I.P. graphic on screen is a small gesture, but the WWE could have done so much more to help Ashley while she was still here. Furthermore, it upsets me greatly that someone made a fake facebook account pretending to be Shelly Martinez (Ariel from ECW) and saying that Ashley committed suicide. Shelly's verified twitter account has denied it and there is zero proof that she ended her own life so please don't believe or spread that rumor.
Even though I never met you and I am just a fan, I'm sorry Ashley. I followed you on Twitter and Instagram, but I never even tried to reach out, and tell you how much you made me smile. Thank you for always caring about your fans, from giving us your phone number during the Diva Search to your last tweet being about responding to fan mail, you were so good to us. I'm crying even now typing this so I should probably stop. I am still too hurt to watch old clips of you right now, but one of these days I'll be watching your matches/promos with a smile on my face!
and I know its weird to say cause you don't know me but I still love you! Thank you and God bless you!
